A Letter To My Absent Dad

Dear Dad,

I just wanted to say hey, and that i am performing okay. I am very the students lady now. As soon as you left you I was that child no parent will want around their own children.

And merely imagine, we only had my hooking up with moms care of myself. I sought out, stuck away, drank, smoked plus had a tendency to be sexually a part of young men I’d communicate with.

I changed from nice young girl who had been constantly wanting to assist their dad epidermis a deer, or clean the automobile, actually to wanting to help cut grass and run the tractor, to a mommy’s and father’s worst nightmare.

I moved trying to find you various other men, because I happened to be desiring the person just who abandoned myself so many in years past.

I know since each time you left or tried to come back but just vanished, it wasn’t my personal mistake. I am aware now that you had problems with your self and that’s the reason why you cann’t end up being a proud mother or father and stay about with my mom.

Father, I want you to understand that the nightmare teenager I found myself is finished today. I am 21 today and that I have actually eventually ceased searching for the person that would only complete the space you remaining during my cardiovascular system.

Alternatively We searched for anyone to complete me while making me personally the happiest woman alive. Im today engaged and I also can not describe how good he treats me personally.

I never ever saw you do things for my personal mother which he does for me. I have never seen this type of really love. You never confirmed my personal mommy this sort of love so I don’t know very well what going looking for until some one at long last confirmed me.

Someone finally confirmed me personally just what children is supposed become like. Because you never ever confirmed myself as I was expanding up with my mother.

Therefore father, i believe from that difficult 12, almost 13 year-old, we turned out pretty well. In my opinion my personal mother lifted a lady with some dark colored part inside her past.

In my opinion my mommy performed well for providing for by herself and me. I might not need received everything completed without her waiting by my area informing me personally it wasn’t my error, that you’d skip me 1 day.

Hence I happened to be a lady, i simply needed to convince you that you hadn’t harm me whenever believed you did.

Best wishes to you old-man, because i really could never ever wish any harm on the man exactly who helped make me personally. I’m just thankful you kept once you did, as you forced me to the girl I am now!

The girl.

by Jodi Lynn Strickland